Monday I met with my therapist and yesterday with my nutritionist, which both went well. One interesting topic my therapist and I talked about was how to not let ED make me worry so much about what is going to happen in the future. I need to just let it happen even though I always like to know what is going to happen. But what I have learned is that fearing the unknown and not knowing what exactly is going to happen is okay and sometimes surprises can be okay and good. I just need to stop worrying and go with the flow and for the most part everything will fall into place and be okay.
I was also glad to meet with my nutritionist to go over my meal plan to make sure it is working. Over the past few weeks she said I have been gaining at a steady weight and to just keep doing what I have been doing since then. We also made a few more tweaks in it as well.
Eats lately have been…
Last Saturday I saw my first ever PITA PIT and I just knew I had to try it! Pita Pit is such a cool sub shop and I am so glad I finally got to try it after I have seen so many bloggers rave about it! I got the grilled turkey with american cheese, lettuce and tomato all wrapped up in a pita! I guess my camera liked it that much that it ate it.
Lunches lately have been pretty typical of me…turkey sandwiches.
Again I gotta tell ya babysitting is a tough job layin’ out by the pool 😉
White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Clif Bar outside in the sun 🙂
loved the California rolls which had carrots, avocado, & crab meat rolled in brown rice. And plus I haven’t had avocado before and I love it now as well. This is defs my new favorite sushi roll 🙂
I started off with a House Salad with Italian dressing. Yes you heard me right, the dressing was already poured on the salad so I just had to eat it with the dressing already on it and not knowing how much was poured on or how many calories were in it etc. But who cares, because guess what?! I ate it!
Now I don’t wanna tell you that everything is going great in my recovery because that would be a lie. This past weekend at my sister’s tournament I kinda struggled a bit. To tell you the truth on Saturday I did not follow my meal plan quite so well although ED was quite happy, deep down inside I was not. That is why I tried to get back on track on Sunday. I think it is real hard for me when I am not at home to recovery. I seem to do well at home because there are less distractions to interfere with my recovery. Although I do know that I need to be able to recover under any circumstances.
One thing I have been having a real hard time with is comparing myself to other girls and how they look vs. how I look. ED always tells me that I should look like her because she is skinnier than me but in reality I know she is NOT as skinny as I am but ED convinces me that she is and that I don’t need to gain any more weight. When this happens I always go to my sisters and ask them if that girl is skinnier than me and they will say “Jenna, are you serious? NO!” When I am struggling with ED thoughts I always go to my sisters because they give me the reassurance I need. My girl Shelley wrote a post on Why Comparing is a Waste of Time and if you haven’t read it yet I suggest you do and right about now 😉