I had a great break but I am also glad to be back at school. I can’t believe I only have ONE month left of school for the semester and then it’s summertime! Whooo.
So anyways I mentioned to her that through middle school and into my high school years I suffered from OCD. Although I was not medically diagnosed with it I definitely had the signs and symptoms, there was no doubt. In those years I was very obsessed with doing things over, over, and over again. I would touch something a certain number of times until I was able to walk away from it. I always felt if I touched something wrong or changed somehing then something bad was going to happen. I was not good with change It was VERY bad and it took up a lot of my time doing un-neccesary behaviors.
As I went through high school these obsessive behaviors faded away and I became not so obsessed. I was just so sick of doing them that I just stopped it! I no longer needed to do these obsessive behaviors or rituals anymore and It felt like such a relief once I finally stopped doing them.
Now doesn’t this OCD remind you of an ED?! Of course it does! I never even thought of it until my therapist mentioned it to me! I became so fed up with my OCD that I just stopped doing it and now as I am recovering in ED, why can’t I just do the same thing as I did with my OCD…just stop?! If I could stop doing these OCD behaviors then I should be able to stop my ED, right?!
So this past weekend I challenged myself not with food but with changing things in my life. I did this because I hate change and I always feel like something bad will happen and this connects to my ED! I feel if I eat food something bad will happen like I will become fat (which is NOT true). So I did some cleaning sround my room and threw away things I don’t need or want anymore in my room. At first I was hesitant in throwing them away because I feared something bad was going to happen. But alas, I just took the stuff and threw it out and took a deep breath. I was proud of myself for doing this and knowing that nothing bad will happen just because I threw something away and changed it!
Sorry for this whole long rant. You all probably think I am a majorrr head case but oh well! I just needed to express my thoughts and there is no better place than MY blog!
Ok so I thought this was so random but the other day on my Formspring someone asked why I always drink my milk out of a plastic cup instead of a glass cup because they said it really makes a difference! But to me, milk tastes the same in a plastic cup or glass!
Once I got back to school I un-packed, cleaned my room, changed my sheets, and CHANGED some stuff etc. ya know the typical stuff ya do when returning back from break.
Later on I went to dinner with the girls and the dining hall was a ghost town! There was legit no body in there and not even all of the lights were on. I think I have officially found my favorite meal at my college dining hall…Wheat pasta with Asparagus & Almonds topped with white chicken!! This was my second time having this meal and I absolutely love it. Although it is supposed to be farfalle pasta tonight it was rotini and also had onions in it to spice it up! On the side I had a piece of wheat bread with butter and a glass of milk.
Whew, that seemed like a long post! Congrats if ya read all of that. I am now off to watch the rest of the RED SOX game and catch up on some blogs 🙂
What is/was your favorite meal in college?!